New Years false start

We all have New Years resolutions and the same as the rest of you I have succumbed to the temptations of the kids left overs, left over kids chocolates from Xmas and the rest. Made a gingerbread house with the kids but then it had to be demolished and eaten, I know so sad.

So what have I done that’s positive? Well I have started to drag myself out of bed in the mornings to do my workouts, it’s so hard especially with the cold but it is good for a routine and really good for that mood lift in the morning.

Bought scales haven’t weighed myself in years and did discover I’ve put on a few so not me. Got these scales #salter from #argos as it doesn’t just calculate your weight but your water and fat levels so much better as we panic as our weight goes up, don’t forget when you start to exercise you will build muscle and it weighs more so you will put on weight at the start. It usually take 6 weeks after exercising before you will start to loose weight.

Muscle is good the more you build the more calories you will burn.

I have managed to finally do splits on both sides and back at my class #aerial #aerialsilks #aerialhoop #pole #polefitness #flyawayaerialstudio learnt some new moves but need to work on my flexibility and handstands.

So diet wise how can I help???

Still needing to snack or Have a nut allergy I have been obsessed with #pumpkinseeds for years apparently good for fertility have been covering my food in them for years. Out of the packet not very tasty.

Really hard work to eat but if you toast them on the pan until they pop they are #addictive #snacks #healthysnacks they are also great to add to cereal and salads to give it that little crunch.

My breakfast is always green tea and water with lemon through the day instead of tea and coffee but usually have a least one a day. Breakfast great to start the day with some fruit but I find fresh fruit goes off so quickly now so I buy frozen berries available in all supermarket you can have them frozen with some nuts, pumpkin seeds, chai seeds, sprinkling of walnuts and some myself then yogurt fav is #alprovanilla #yogurts or you can put the fruit and nuts, seeds etc on the pan and heat up yummy with muesli like a fruit crumble with some yummy yogurt over the top it’s like a dessert for breakfast.

Well that’s it for today tomorrow I will show you some yummy but healthy snacks to replace your #chocolateaddiction

New year new me

So 2017 had its ups and downs but 2018 is going to be my year. I have chilled out and slowed down in the last year but it is time to start moving forward now and planning for the future.

8FDE008A-73C7-4A1C-8946-C03298DABBE7After having a very merry Christmas eating more than I have ever eaten and not thought about the consequences, not being anxious about getting out to exercise I can say I had a very good xmas. Kids were happy so that meant I’d done a good job.

Im knackered now after having so much going on over xmas, working, cooking, entertaining, decorating and the usual housework and running after the kids. I have had a lot of lie ins so will be a struggle to get back to work.

But this is day 1 of the new year for me, time to plan and make some actions this year.

So what are my goals for this year

1. Get super fit

2. Start my own business

3. Start making money and stop spending it

4. Make more time for loved ones

5. Stop spending money on clothes

6. Perform pole, silks and hoop

So to start I am on a detox


#nomorealcohol only special occasions





So follow me on my journey where I will create an amazing low fat, delicious, sustainable diet posting up exciting new recipes every week and share the best exercises to target those pain in the ass areas where all our indulgences cling to. Building on confidence and looking amazing with the latest and best beauty and fashion tips I can find.

so create those goals set achievable goals and create a timeline to make sure you are making progress to your 2018 goals.

#perserverance #determination #strength #confidence #aspirational #achiebvable


Snowmood like Christmas mood

I love Christmas I love the snow the nostalgia but hate the cold and the anxiety the weather brings, will I get to work, will I get the kids to school and get them home again?

9D2002C7-9843-4562-BA0E-769C9945E0F4.jpegThis was our garden so I wasn’t risking going out in car or having to go back to kids, nightmare. So I declared a snow day.

I love the snow went a bit mad must have given me lots of endorphins as this is what I did.


some fun in the snow ❄️ some cool shots for my social media not in bad shape but need a lot more work. The #trampoline is a really good workout and when cold and half dressed your body has to work harder and burns more calories.

Couldnt resist Had to do a #snowangel


It was freezing but definitely woke up my #metabolism. To finish the fun we well I built a snowman or snowoman I think it looks like. Good workout, was having so much fun I forgot what time it was true #mindfulness the key have fun like a kid don’t worry about what you look like or what other people think be #confident and have #fun be #carefree like a child.


so proud of my snowoman we got some nice pics as well don’t need to get a fake snow pic when we have #realsnow

#keytohapliness #letgo #havefun #beatdepression #exercise the body #stimulates the brain 🧠 #aware #mindfulness

Beating Winter blues

I suffer from depression so every morning is a struggle it’s pitch black outside and my body just wants to listen to my brain that is saying ‘stay in bed in so nice and warm’ so I listen to it after my first alarm and second then finally drag myself out of bed when I realise I have 30 mins to get the 3 of us out the door and fed.

so my routine is blown out of the water can’t get up therefore haven’t been doing my exercises in the morning to boost my endorphins and set me up for the day as for a social life I become a recluse in winter prefer to go into Hibernation Just coming out to go to work and whatever the kids need so hard to get myself motivated.


go to bed earlier easier said than done only me time I get

set alarm earlier and actually get up

do some exercises

coffee a must

organise everything the night before I do try there’s always something missing

change all clocks to be earlier than it actually is

Anyway the fact I dislocated my foot again has meant no exercise or being able to get out for a week and eating stodgy food help I need to get out of this rut.

how? Make lists, sets rules, make menus, don’t buy treats for a while follow your plan and calendar give yourself 3 goals to achieve everyday start small otherwise you’re overwhelmed and give up before you start

So back to my class toe taped up so afraid of it going out again which I was told will happen ggggrrrrrr so did some pole and hoop

Can flip myself upside down now and was spinning on the hoop as well love this class it is all I have for me it’s tge me time when I’m not mummy and don’t have to care about how short my shorts are or how big my bum is etc it builds confidence where you don’t care we all have bits of our bodies we don’t like we have to accept what we have improve if you want and love yourself body and you will love yourself then the world will fall in love with you.

2FD81B10-E803-436E-97AA-6D2B2E4A1D68.jpegIts great exercise, social and confidence builder for anyone of any age of build.

#flyawayaerialstudio #lisburn #pole

Halloween Family Fun

9BF9654D-6C0F-475F-B039-38FBEDFABCC7.jpegCan not believe it is Halloween already where has the summer gone to. I do love autumn but do struggle with the dark mornings set 2 sometimes 3 alarms and switch them all off leaving me with half an hour to get myself and 2 kids out fed and dressed for 9am starts. I need to stop this I really must put my mood lamp on and use it to make me up refreshed I will review next time to see if any good.

October is a busy month so we had Cara’s 4th birthday got lots of #moana toys, I made a #tigercake for her birthday I will share more details later it was yum.


We went to #streamvale farm to see lots of animals and pick and carve pumpkins a great fun #halloween family day out.

Mya also started #horseriding lessons at #limeequestrian centre Moira great deals £80 for 8 lessons, horses lovely and teacher is really good definitely recommend I’ve tried a lot of places very expensive so can never afford to keep her at the lessons and it’s what she really loves and wants to do.

back at #pole again at #flyawayaerialstudio in Lisburn loving the #spinningpole, back breaking #hoop moves and #silks.2976AC9B-65E7-409D-B684-DC670980CBD0.jpeg

Morning struggles life struggles

👀 at the calendar and the clocks go back at the end of the month so driving home in the dark and not wanting to go outside just want to lie in front of the TV no that is so depressing.

A7BF3F5F-60F2-43EF-ACA9-34BB2EE9756E.pngget some reflective gear #ebay or is good for these so cheap great stuff for xmas presents I’m nearly done using and #argos 3 for 2 on toys.

so get your wellies and reflective gear go out for #walks #splashing in muddy puddles #cycles fresh air is such a cleanser for the head and the body.

Feel like shit in the dark mornings you’re not alone join the club every morning I knock off both alarms and fall asleep then everything is a rush to get the kids to school and I feel like shit #solution #gotobedearlier but I want to catch up on my programmes before bed I know but not good before bed best #bedtime routine snacks banana or cherry juice has melamine which helps make you tired #camomiletea #readabook #amazon  makes the eyes tired and distracts the mind from your real problems. Put your phone on charge and in #flightmode so easy to just pick up and read all the crap people put up on facebook and the funny stuff too addictive then the #browsing the shops #technology is evil. Also if you’re a #worrier and a #multitasker make lists at night of what all you need to do the next day so you’re mind can rest instead of worrying also #lavender sprays or drops are amazing just drop or spray on your pillow knocks you out #boots chemists.

7194C154-3735-42AB-9E8B-CE4E77CB66DE.pngThis used to be my bedtime routine I woke up exercises then got kids to school now I’m just so tired and demotivated in the morning.

Getting everything organised in the morning uniforms lunches etc makes the morning easier knowing all the shortcuts to school others haven’t discovered yet, being able to apply makeup while eating breakfast and srying my hair in 5 mins I have it down to a fine art all in an hour this morning half an hour.

always remember before you drive off on the car #takeafewdeepbreaths #mindfulness it might be what helps you cope in your day or prevents you from that silly accident on the way to work. #awareni



if you can change your morning drive take a Different route or change something you do in the morning keeps you’re mind active and you notice new things that #stimulate your brain, make you slow down and appreciate everything around us we are always rushing from one place to another just take a minute out of your day to appreciate life as for some it is very precious and when you realise it is very short you start to appreciate the little things like the sky at night, the stars, birds singing, collecting different coloured leaves, spotting a squirrel running across the road, kids laughing and having fun treasure these images these moments because one day you will not be able to appreciate the simple things in life and you will regret not living your life but merely existing. Mark you make me appreciate these little things because Life is so precious be strong, be brave, we love you.

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Autumn falls

While I love how the colours of the leaves 🍁 change on the trees, the sound of crunching leaves under my feet, kicking leaves and jumping in muddy puddles. It drains me of energy.

The lack of sunshine means a decline in VitD and with it my harmones change I get really tired, find it so difficult to drag myself out of my bed when it is dark outside then travelling up that hateful M1 to work eyes 👀 so tired 💤 just feel like crawling back under my covers.

Buti have to go to work and kids to school and life must go on. On top of that I have had the cold on an off waking up every morning as if I’ve been out on the drink 🍷  all night I wish. I also have strained or possibly torn a muscle in my shoulder after pole last week and has been so painful so had to miss class and haven’t been able to do much exercise and was feeling good and getting stronger so I turn to food e specially chocolate these days not good I know .


So feeling a bit down finding it hard to get motivated to do anything and as I have little time to myself I feel like crap because I have sat on my bum watching TV instead of cleaning or tackling my never ending piles of ironing I never get on top of, will I ever probably not there are more enjoyable things to do with my days doing some #mindfulness #training some lighter exercise managed a cycle 🚲 think it helped my muscle and the fresh air is great for the mind.


Need to get on top of things have more time to myself now and still can’t get on top of basics but im now onto my 5th module of my #personaltraining course through #newskillsacademy can’t wait to get back to #pole #flyawayaerialstudio get my #diet on track reduce carbs and treats and alcohol increase fish and veggies and lots and lots of #waterwithlemon

Skinny jeans dilemma

So I pick a pair of jeans out of the wardrobe the other day slide up my legs with difficulty then could not get them up any further than my knees. I was horrified did I not wear these when I was first pregnant with Cara and after there’s no way I’ve put on so much weight I thought I’d lost some.

IMG_0330feeling really down I looked at the size on the label and thank god they were for a 9year old clearly Mya’s thank god nearly died definite relief. Definitely can see my legs getting slimmer with the #planks and #weights so much better than jumping around all the time but still leaves me exhausted but feeling tight and toned.


A week of ups and downs

So winter is definitely setting in finding it so hard to get up every morning, hit snooze button off still can’t get up. This is why I hate the winter I struggle with my energy levels.

Witg a better work life balance I get home earlier in the evening so we can all go for a walk after tea energises is with the fresh air and the start of delicious soups.

My delema is what to wear boots or sandles, coat or no coat etc making the wrong decision means you’re overheating or end up with the. Cold I’ve experienced both.


My legs burned, covered in bruises but this energises me too.

My fav exercise is the plank right now exhausting and works the entire body will share exercises soon.

It was full of ups and downs the worst was an event at Mya’s school a young girl collapsed and the next day died my heart goes out to her family. It is never easy to deal with the death of a child but when you get up that morning get them ready for school and drop them off saying see you later do you ever imagine those would be your last words to them. So many things have happened which makes me realise how important it is to always say I love you try to not get stressed out in the morning with your kids make it fun make everyone happy, live life, take chance, don’t wait around to do things you want and make excuses sometimes we have to push ourselves past our comfort zone to make our kids lives better and to be a good parent you need to not only be there for your kids, set the best example you can on how to live a happy fulfilled life without anxiety, fear, worrying about others and images just be healthy, active and happy 😊

life is too short to put things off and never have any regrets find a way to do what you want and if things go wrong they are sent to make us stronger and learn from what went wrong. We can all do it, taking time out for yourself, eating healthily and exercising with the kids, having adventures this is what life should be.

Children are precious make every minute count, always be there for your kids and always kiss them and hug them everyday as much as you can, their love is precious, uncompromising, not critical, not short lived but forever in your heart and theirs an everlasting bond of love.