Feeling fitter but energy low

I am feeling fitter and loving my #pole did a hard move a real skin burner

#flyawayaerialstudio #pole also did some silk moves and a routine

I am getting fitter but still finding it hard to shift the bit of weight I want and to kill my old habits of attacking the Easter eggs in the cupboard and staying up late.

This was a yummy #salad #fish #edamane beans #pumpkin seeds #rocket #brocolli #grains #kale

Boil the grains and add a green tea and mint teabag

Dressing was omg

Pulp and rind grated of frozen lemon

Teaspoon of sunflower oil, white wine vinegar, apple cider vinegar

Read this the #benefits of #frozenlemons big benefits to your health.

I blended up a frozen lemon 🍋 and added some to my salad then used some to add to sparkling #water to make a refreshing drink and have some to add to my hot water with #lemon in the morning and to add to my water throughout the day. #detox #cleanse

The other product I’ve added to my diet is #applecidervinegar another #cleanser and #detoxer it also has other properties and can help in the battle of #cancer basically an #alkaline diet can apparently stop the growth of the cancer cells which has been made by all of the chemicals from the food we eat and water we drink. We’ve created this disease but how can we fight it.

The other

The other product I’ve added to my diet is apple

There are so many #supplements out there I’ve spent my life adding #vitamin tablets #herbal tablets that are supposed to help with #energy production in the body and help with #depression I feel like if someone shook me I’d rattle. I am sick of being #sick too had the #flu for 2 weeks get over that then I get a really bad #cough but every day I wake up #knackered crave #carbs #chocolate to give me the energy to get through the day and to enjoy it not just try to make it through it in one piece, just want to feel alive and full of energy.

Will I ever feel that alive without having to kill myself with #exercise without cutting down on food struggling to stay on top of things then collapsing at night and turning to that bad food #chocolate.

#What do I want?

I want to be in the best shape I’ve ever been in

To have the confidence I’ve always wanted but have never achieved due to my depression

I want to wake up feeling alive like I’ve had the best sleep ever and full of energy and motivation to take on all the days challenges

To not have to take anti depressants and all the other tablets I take to help boost all of my energy

I want to have energy to do all the things I’ve ever wanted to do

To be the most amazing mother to my two daughters and make them proud

To be healthy and most importantly of all happy

Have I found the answer? Maybe!!!!!

I’m very excited to experience and share what I’ve discovered

So keep watching and reading as I think there might be a lot of exciting posts to come

So keep on reading and share with friends



Hoop silk and a pole later

So starting to feel a lot #fitter been exercising everyday doing my #t25 @beachbody.com the workouts are amazing for the legs and stomach. I’m getting leaner and have dropped 6lbs now can see legs toning too.

So did a few dangerous moves as always at pole and hoop but love the feeling of being able to do this and be flexible. Last week was silks, getting better at the coordination and remembering routines.

The #pole we have started doing routines #sorethighs #poledancing

#hoop we did some more routines #soreback #aerialhoop some amazing moves.

@flyawayaerialstudio #lisburn #tanyacheung #aerial #pole #aerial #silks

Easter 🐣

Kids are off school yeah let’s have lots of fun.

Sure if you don’t have to work and have lots of money an average day out with 2 kids will cost you at least £50 x 2 weeks £700 that a cheap foreign holiday.

So yeah I was working the main days so the kids had some family time they did a #cadbury Easter egg house at #ardess house outside fresh air and cheap of course. There were also #animals #maskmaking #artsandcrafts and lots of picture opportunities a cheap day out with a #picnic and a #park.

They also visited the #planetarium #armagh there is an #interactive #space show as well as #artsandcrafts and all indoors if it’s #raining.

So I missed out on the fun but I did get a #selfie with the #easterbunny at #ikeabelfast where we had lots of family fun as always.

Holly got involved in our #easter activities #shihtzu #puppy

#eggpainting #shortbread making and #biscuitsdecorating #carrotcake #healthy recipe and an #easter egg trail

#recipe @lovingitvegan.com

Spring in your step

Finally spring is on its way I got out for a run sun shining vit D lots of endorphins from the sun and exercise.

Need to build my fitness back up back to hoop and pole learnt a few new moves and lots of new bruises.

Have managed to get the kids out to the park twice lots of exercise and fresh air for us all.

Called into #Hillsborough park

on way home from a birthday party in #w5 I have to say I was impressed with the new indoor play place, love the climb it and the new augmented reality, were there all day kids had a ball and great thing is there’s something for kids of all ages.

Car was in the driving seat taking her friends out for the day.

Went out for lunch to a hidden gem #sleepyhollow a mix of contemporary dining mixed with tradition. Very quaint homely gem with a traditional meat heavy menu but the miniature #desserts and the #waitress who served us made it amazing especially for the kids very welcome and homely.

#cremebrulli is now my fav dessert

Full up after all this so had a healthy #veg and #cheese dip snacks

#busy weekend #Single mom

Kids finished for Easter but forgot to make an #easter bonnet for Cara’s nursery so half an hour before we had to leave had to pull this together

About to leave then had a thought does she need to wear her uniform checked note no so quick outfit change before running out the door 10 mins late but hey I got them both to school and nursery and made an Easter bonnet so not a complete failure I managed to bring it all together in the end how do I do it same as the rest of the mums out there at the last minute, by the skin of my teach and now and again I’m late or forget a non uniform day or to make something, sign a note, sign the homework, iron their uniform, pack their bag the night before, give them for the works book day, swimming, disco, break the rules day the list goes on, no wonder we forget something now and again, how do we do it because we’re #moms and are kids will always come first and we will all do our best. We’re not perfect, you may not believe that, the immaculate ones who seem to always get it right and have it all isn’t always the case, we can put our face on to go out and appear the perfect mom but we all have things going on in our lives, ups and downs so don’t judge anyone or have preconceptions about people but how they look or act. We all have our masks we put on everyday to ensure our kids get to where they are supposed to and live a happy and full life. Being a parent is never easy and we all do the best we can none of us our perfect it’s what makes us who we are and the world so diverse.

#single moms #dads #moms and #grandparents raising kids you’re amazing and doing a brilliant job just look at what you’re doing and those amazing little beings who amaze us everyday and a cuddle a kiss and make all our worries slip away for that second our worlds would be so empty and boring without them #kidsareamazing

Constant pickers wear big knickers

This is what they say and it’s true. I prepare food and pick as I go along, the kids food is sitting there a few bits of chicken left or chips and I can’t bear to throw out so I eat them, I open something for the kids and I sample it before I give it to them or help them out by eating all the little broken bits.

I know this is what I do but how do I stop?????

It’s hard you just have to not pick at anything or have some carrot sticks on hand if I need to nibble but best is to just go cold turkey and better to not nibble at anything.

This was my brekkie some nice frozen fruit heated up on the pan then mix in some museli and seeds and some natural yogurt over the top yum like a berry crumble.

I am taking control back trying not to nibble and back to my workouts and class. We did some pole and some silks this was a hard one you have to fling yourself over to the side let curl in and the silk should hold you took me a while.

Back to T25, running and insanity workouts as well as some weights but due to the awful weather only got out once. Have dropped a few pounds and stomach muscles getting tighter my stomach was killing me by the end of the week they were some tough workouts.

Made some chickpea treats.

Soak chickpeas overnight then boil for an hours.

Put in oven and roast for 40 mins approx

Melt some dark choc mix the chickpeas in and with spoon put them on a tray you can then sprinkle some chai seeds pumpkin seeds or coconut flakes over whatever you want a food choc fix which in low in fat and high in protein and crunchy and easy to make.

Finally got my hair done always boosts my confidence and makes me feel good if only it lasted.

I’m back

So you may have noticed I disappeared for a few weeks and no I didn’t die and someone has stolen my identity.

I had this really bad flu that was going about completely knocked me for six. Never had flu so bad completely killed my energy and appetite, felt so unwell and so lethargic. Being a single mom is no fun, even when your sick you have to drag yourself out of bed, make your kids presentable, make sure they have what they need, fed and then drive them to school. Hard enough when you are well but when you feel like you have been hit by a bus it’s horrendous.

So I was off for 2 weeks, house was a mess, I was a mess, didn’t wash for days, I even went outside with no make up this is a first for me never have I done this but I felt so unwell I didn’t care and didn’t have the energy to put on any make up.

For 2 weeks I loved my jammies, my sunglasses to hide my black eyes and lack of make up and my ugg boots especially as we had the big snowfall as well, I ran out of oil before the big snow and storm and Cara had the chicken pox really bad too.

So I managed to keep us warm, fed and get Mya to school and home again, that’s all that matters.

I didn’t get to have any fun in the snow and it’s the most we’ve had for years. I didn’t get to exercise which was fine first week as I felt so nauseous second week I have just pigged out especially ending with My mums birthday, Mother’s Day and Mark’s birthday.

We had fun with fruit and managed a walk in the last of the snow once I got some energy back.

Saturday was the first day I felt better and actually wanted to get up and to exercise I even woke early as well and felt motivated again to clean the house (on my god) I know haven’t been up for cleaning for months and also had to leave Cara to a party.

Made my mum and Mark a joint birthday cake death by chocolate fudge cake omg it was amazing recipe from


Mother’s Day was amazing I had all of my girls with me breakfast made for me, beautiful hand made cards and gifts.

The best gift of all is just being a mother, I love my girls so much they are my world and I would do anything for them. Yes it would be nice for someone to arrange something for me for Mother’s Day make me a meal, take me out for one, arrange some spa treatments but the best presents are always the home made gifts and the kisses and hugs that keep you going everyday.

To all the mums, single mums and grandmothers who are doing it the second time around, being a mother is a hard job especially on your own but so rewarding that bond with your kids and watching they grow as you nurture them and provide for all their needs and can look at them and know that you created these amazing kids and made them into what they are today.

Everyday is Mother’s Day.

Over indulgence done, recovery from sickness, energy levels and mood back up, motivation back up and fat cells restored to above normal.

Back to healthy diet and exercise again recon I’ve put on weight feeling uncomfortable in my clothes being on spring and summer so I can get outside breath in the air and take in the sun rays. Last week the sun was out but all I wanted to do was hide under my duvet sick of the snow need some heat and sunshine, playing in the garden, trips to beach and lots of fun.

So hopefully I will get back on track with life take back control and show you how you too can take control and change your mindset and diet.

Day ????? Whatever?????

I was doing so well but then I’ve had a chest infection it’s so cold so just want to and need to eat to keep warm and keep energy up of course can’t get an appointment to see the doctor as they now only release appointments at 9am every morning you can no longer arrange appointments in the future ridiculous so exercise has been hard with coughing and not being able to breath as well.

So motivation and energy has been up and down. Feeling low and just want to stay in bed all day but can’t as I have 2 kids who have to go to school and a job to go to so I can keep a roof over my head.

So what have I been at well Valentines we went to #boulderworld #apolloroad #belfast first time did well but lost grip fell and hurt my ankle frozen peas on it later as I couldn’t walk it was fun though no ropes just fall and roll onto the bouncy floor not for the lighthearted was quite scary.

we then went to #eatstreet in Belfast #vegan restaurant food nice no real atmosphere though needs some work and was quite expensive for what we had which was a pulled pork style veggie burger and 2 salads

We then had #risotto for tea love risotto used to think what was the point just rice but it’s amazing just some risotto rice some chopped onions a splash of wine and stock Cubs then at the end when it thickens you add the grated Parmesan so creamy and yum. Prefer red onions so much nicer and added in some leftover sweet potato you can chuck anything in to be honest meat or veg I love just mushrooms.

So in terms of weight loss I’m at a stand still but am trying to get out running at least once a week and up before kids in the morning to do a workout it’s just getting into a routine.

#wrecked #singlemom #fitnessmotivation #t25 #beachbody #running