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Beating Winter blues

I suffer from depression so every morning is a struggle it’s pitch black outside and my body just wants to listen to my brain that is saying ‘stay in bed in so nice and warm’ so I listen to it after my first alarm and second then finally drag myself out of bed when I realise I have 30 mins to get the 3 of us out the door and fed.

so my routine is blown out of the water can’t get up therefore haven’t been doing my exercises in the morning to boost my endorphins and set me up for the day as for a social life I become a recluse in winter prefer to go into Hibernation Just coming out to go to work and whatever the kids need so hard to get myself motivated.


go to bed earlier easier said than done only me time I get

set alarm earlier and actually get up

do some exercises

coffee a must

organise everything the night before I do try there’s always something missing

change all clocks to be earlier than it actually is

Anyway the fact I dislocated my foot again has meant no exercise or being able to get out for a week and eating stodgy food help I need to get out of this rut.

how? Make lists, sets rules, make menus, don’t buy treats for a while follow your plan and calendar give yourself 3 goals to achieve everyday start small otherwise you’re overwhelmed and give up before you start

So back to my class toe taped up so afraid of it going out again which I was told will happen ggggrrrrrr so did some pole and hoop

Can flip myself upside down now and was spinning on the hoop as well love this class it is all I have for me it’s tge me time when I’m not mummy and don’t have to care about how short my shorts are or how big my bum is etc it builds confidence where you don’t care we all have bits of our bodies we don’t like we have to accept what we have improve if you want and love yourself body and you will love yourself then the world will fall in love with you.

2FD81B10-E803-436E-97AA-6D2B2E4A1D68.jpegIts great exercise, social and confidence builder for anyone of any age of build.

#flyawayaerialstudio #lisburn #pole

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Halloween Family Fun

9BF9654D-6C0F-475F-B039-38FBEDFABCC7.jpegCan not believe it is Halloween already where has the summer gone to. I do love autumn but do struggle with the dark mornings set 2 sometimes 3 alarms and switch them all off leaving me with half an hour to get myself and 2 kids out fed and dressed for 9am starts. I need to stop this I really must put my mood lamp on and use it to make me up refreshed I will review next time to see if any good.

October is a busy month so we had Cara’s 4th birthday got lots of #moana toys, I made a #tigercake for her birthday I will share more details later it was yum.


We went to #streamvale farm to see lots of animals and pick and carve pumpkins a great fun #halloween family day out.

Mya also started #horseriding lessons at #limeequestrian centre Moira great deals £80 for 8 lessons, horses lovely and teacher is really good definitely recommend I’ve tried a lot of places very expensive so can never afford to keep her at the lessons and it’s what she really loves and wants to do.

back at #pole again at #flyawayaerialstudio in Lisburn loving the #spinningpole, back breaking #hoop moves and #silks.2976AC9B-65E7-409D-B684-DC670980CBD0.jpeg

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Morning struggles life struggles

👀 at the calendar and the clocks go back at the end of the month so driving home in the dark and not wanting to go outside just want to lie in front of the TV no that is so depressing.

A7BF3F5F-60F2-43EF-ACA9-34BB2EE9756E.pngget some reflective gear #ebay or is good for these so cheap great stuff for xmas presents I’m nearly done using and #argos 3 for 2 on toys.

so get your wellies and reflective gear go out for #walks #splashing in muddy puddles #cycles fresh air is such a cleanser for the head and the body.

Feel like shit in the dark mornings you’re not alone join the club every morning I knock off both alarms and fall asleep then everything is a rush to get the kids to school and I feel like shit #solution #gotobedearlier but I want to catch up on my programmes before bed I know but not good before bed best #bedtime routine snacks banana or cherry juice has melamine which helps make you tired #camomiletea #readabook #amazon  makes the eyes tired and distracts the mind from your real problems. Put your phone on charge and in #flightmode so easy to just pick up and read all the crap people put up on facebook and the funny stuff too addictive then the #browsing the shops #technology is evil. Also if you’re a #worrier and a #multitasker make lists at night of what all you need to do the next day so you’re mind can rest instead of worrying also #lavender sprays or drops are amazing just drop or spray on your pillow knocks you out #boots chemists.

7194C154-3735-42AB-9E8B-CE4E77CB66DE.pngThis used to be my bedtime routine I woke up exercises then got kids to school now I’m just so tired and demotivated in the morning.

Getting everything organised in the morning uniforms lunches etc makes the morning easier knowing all the shortcuts to school others haven’t discovered yet, being able to apply makeup while eating breakfast and srying my hair in 5 mins I have it down to a fine art all in an hour this morning half an hour.

always remember before you drive off on the car #takeafewdeepbreaths #mindfulness it might be what helps you cope in your day or prevents you from that silly accident on the way to work. #awareni



if you can change your morning drive take a Different route or change something you do in the morning keeps you’re mind active and you notice new things that #stimulate your brain, make you slow down and appreciate everything around us we are always rushing from one place to another just take a minute out of your day to appreciate life as for some it is very precious and when you realise it is very short you start to appreciate the little things like the sky at night, the stars, birds singing, collecting different coloured leaves, spotting a squirrel running across the road, kids laughing and having fun treasure these images these moments because one day you will not be able to appreciate the simple things in life and you will regret not living your life but merely existing. Mark you make me appreciate these little things because Life is so precious be strong, be brave, we love you.

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Autumn falls

While I love how the colours of the leaves 🍁 change on the trees, the sound of crunching leaves under my feet, kicking leaves and jumping in muddy puddles. It drains me of energy.

The lack of sunshine means a decline in VitD and with it my harmones change I get really tired, find it so difficult to drag myself out of my bed when it is dark outside then travelling up that hateful M1 to work eyes 👀 so tired 💤 just feel like crawling back under my covers.

Buti have to go to work and kids to school and life must go on. On top of that I have had the cold on an off waking up every morning as if I’ve been out on the drink 🍷  all night I wish. I also have strained or possibly torn a muscle in my shoulder after pole last week and has been so painful so had to miss class and haven’t been able to do much exercise and was feeling good and getting stronger so I turn to food e specially chocolate these days not good I know .


So feeling a bit down finding it hard to get motivated to do anything and as I have little time to myself I feel like crap because I have sat on my bum watching TV instead of cleaning or tackling my never ending piles of ironing I never get on top of, will I ever probably not there are more enjoyable things to do with my days doing some #mindfulness #training some lighter exercise managed a cycle 🚲 think it helped my muscle and the fresh air is great for the mind.


Need to get on top of things have more time to myself now and still can’t get on top of basics but im now onto my 5th module of my #personaltraining course through #newskillsacademy can’t wait to get back to #pole #flyawayaerialstudio get my #diet on track reduce carbs and treats and alcohol increase fish and veggies and lots and lots of #waterwithlemon

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Skinny jeans dilemma

So I pick a pair of jeans out of the wardrobe the other day slide up my legs with difficulty then could not get them up any further than my knees. I was horrified did I not wear these when I was first pregnant with Cara and after there’s no way I’ve put on so much weight I thought I’d lost some.

IMG_0330feeling really down I looked at the size on the label and thank god they were for a 9year old clearly Mya’s thank god nearly died definite relief. Definitely can see my legs getting slimmer with the #planks and #weights so much better than jumping around all the time but still leaves me exhausted but feeling tight and toned.


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A week of ups and downs

So winter is definitely setting in finding it so hard to get up every morning, hit snooze button off still can’t get up. This is why I hate the winter I struggle with my energy levels.

Witg a better work life balance I get home earlier in the evening so we can all go for a walk after tea energises is with the fresh air and the start of delicious soups.

My delema is what to wear boots or sandles, coat or no coat etc making the wrong decision means you’re overheating or end up with the. Cold I’ve experienced both.


My legs burned, covered in bruises but this energises me too.

My fav exercise is the plank right now exhausting and works the entire body will share exercises soon.

It was full of ups and downs the worst was an event at Mya’s school a young girl collapsed and the next day died my heart goes out to her family. It is never easy to deal with the death of a child but when you get up that morning get them ready for school and drop them off saying see you later do you ever imagine those would be your last words to them. So many things have happened which makes me realise how important it is to always say I love you try to not get stressed out in the morning with your kids make it fun make everyone happy, live life, take chance, don’t wait around to do things you want and make excuses sometimes we have to push ourselves past our comfort zone to make our kids lives better and to be a good parent you need to not only be there for your kids, set the best example you can on how to live a happy fulfilled life without anxiety, fear, worrying about others and images just be healthy, active and happy 😊

life is too short to put things off and never have any regrets find a way to do what you want and if things go wrong they are sent to make us stronger and learn from what went wrong. We can all do it, taking time out for yourself, eating healthily and exercising with the kids, having adventures this is what life should be.

Children are precious make every minute count, always be there for your kids and always kiss them and hug them everyday as much as you can, their love is precious, uncompromising, not critical, not short lived but forever in your heart and theirs an everlasting bond of love.


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Back to life, back to reality

This is how I feel sometimes like screaming, just letting go of my stress the costume is actually Cara’s for her tiger birthday

September has always been a month a dread getting back to school, homeworks, after school activities, work etc but with Cara being in school I don’t have to get up so early to exercise in the morning but can do when I leave her down, don’t have to worry about it being dark which I used to when I raced home from work to do a cycle or a run then straight to nursery to collect the girls.

My routines were so tight very rigid with little room to adapt to changes which would mean that sometimes life could just become a boring routine of the same stuff everyday but with my more flexible working hours and a few hours to myself life is finally starting to get a  it easier.

i am finally back to my aerial class after 3 weeks due to holiday and dislocated toe. Thought I would be way behind but was fine just couldn’t climb the pole with my left leg as toe was too sore.  But for so a few cool moves and some hoop. I have to say I love my class at #flyawayaerial studios I have found a new passion and helps me destress and escape from 2 screaming hyper girls for a few hours.


Haven t done much exercise since dislocating my toe don’t feel too bad been doing some conditioning and stretching instead trying to tone up.


Mark has taught me some amazing exercises so will see if they work hopefully will change my arms and legs and then I will share my secrets.


I even managed to put a few of the different moves into a sequence usually overthink it but managed to do it without mistakes first time so proud.

Wouldn’t download see my instagram page #chicmammacarla

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118 mile cycle 

Cant believe this was a year ago I cycle from Ikea Belfast to Ikea Dublin 118 miles on my 2nd day on a road bike

It was the start of a new found love for cycling a lot easier on the joints and less stressful mentally gives you a sense of freedom and fresh air love flying down the hills feel like a child again really good mindfulness best exercise for depression and you can do with friends or join a club and chat as you cycle or actually cycle somewhere and have a treat

Thanks to #IKEA for their #cycletoworkscheme which allowed me to buy my bike from #halfords and my 2 comrades Jonny and Linda still haven’t done our next challenge yet 

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New career

So I’m a single mom struggling to pay bills and have a decent life and I thought what’s my passion???

Always been obsessed with my body mostly hating it and starving it. Having suffered from anorexia for most of my life battling the I hate food cause it makes me fat demon on my brain that voice has finally ceased.

Exercising and I standing my body is like a car if you don’t give it fuel it won’t work properly the computer system gets messed up your organs don’t work properly you’re tired moody irritable and don’t want to go out as everything you go is food haunting you.

I’ve had lots of ups and downs with my body image called image dismorphia I see fat others see skinny why can’t I just see what they see if only there was a quick fix this is all part of depression so get your brain sorted then actually understand why you are eating the different types of food and what your body actually uses it for. 

I have had 2 babies and because I eat healthily and exercise even during my pregnancies it made them easier on my body and my mind made the labour easier and quicker and easy to get back into shape and into my skinny jeans straight away.

I am embarking on a new career as I work part time and Cara now in pew school I have some time to concentrate on what I want and to develop a career to help people who are battling health issues to become healthy and happy I also want my kids to be proud of their mommy the most important reason and to be able to support them financially so this is the start I just need to get my bod into the best shape of its life.
I got the courSe through #groupon great deal and was through #vizualcoaching the course is provided by the #newskillsacademy. I studied marketing my whole life and have been working in it for nearly over 16 years but when my life changed after my marriage ended it made me reevaluate my life. I want to do a job that is flexible to fit round my kids, that is something I’m passionate about and to help people to be happy and healthy.

So join me and I will along the way share my health tips some great exercises and meal plans.

I am also signed up for a #yoga course so will share that with you too.

Best start to day hot water with lemon 🍋 great detoxes helps to clear toxins and loose weight drink during the day cold too just a slice of lemon that’s all it takes 

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Mini me

So I have missed 2 weeks army #aerial class because of my toe I didn’t get to try out on hols so Cara gave it a go she is def going to be good at aerial exercise #minipole

We celebrated her first day with a free #babychino @ #roast coffee shop she loved it